Queer Poem-a-Day is a program from the Adult Services Department at the Library and may include adult language.
Ana I Don’t Forget
by Gala Mukomolova
Ana, I don’t forget those mornings I rested in your childhood
blizzard town, where time froze and we walked knee-deep
toward each other.
I was a stranger everywhere, I wept at the homeness of your language
weight of your pen’s black line, circumference
of your thick hair bound—impossibly ungendered. Leather
satchel at your chest heavy with stones, a spell.
Today’s wind is bold, my windows shake with language.
What is the message? Birds, trees, and buildings register
although they’re human-made. I think I might be otherwise.
Wish I wasn’t prone to put myself in the center of stories
of the Earth, the heart, its weather. This clear sky is otherwise
radiant. It streams through glass onto my hands
warming them. Sometimes I see a woman with rings
on every finger and think of drives north to Astoria.
That baker gave us her begonia because I loved its underside
—hot red hearts—she loved us, our strangerness.
Raw buckwheat honey we bought off the truck religiously,
road over Youngs River so close to water I could taste it.
Anxious for wild coastline, there are days when I think I know
why we loved each other, readily, away from daily life
rarely in it. Days I unknow
like death unwinds a clock.
Unknowing is a kind of language too, a kind of wind.
If we had known how to forgive each other at the same time—
In the shadowlight, staring at a satellite, imagining an owl.
It is impossible to really know another person, you taught me that.
Wild things come as often as they leave, don’t they?
Copyright © 2021 by Gala Mukomolova. Used with the permission of the author. Previously published in Home is Where You Queer Your Heart Anthology.
About the Author
Gala Mukomolova is a Moscow-born, Brooklyn-raised, poet and essayist. Her full-length book, Without Protection, is available through Coffee House Press. Her chapbook, One Above One Below: Positions & Lamentations, is available with YesYes Books. She is a recipient of the 2016 Discovery Prize from 92nd St Y & Boston Review and has held residencies at Vermont Studio Center, Pink Door, and ASYLUM Arts. Gala currently writes astrology articles for Refinery29, co-hosts Big Dyke Energy Podcast, and is one of the creators of QueerHealers.com. She is a founder and part of The Cheburashka Collective. For more: galacticrabbit.com
- Day 1: Pride Month by Shelley Wong
- Day 2: Is This or Is This True as Happiness by Derrick Austin
- Day 3: Nature Poem by Sam Herschel Wein
- Day 4: Ana I Don’t Forget by Gala Mukomolova
- Day 5: Eavesdropping on Adam and Eve by Andrea Cohen
- Day 6: Billow of Thistles by Ruben Quesada
- Day 7: Prayer for My Trans Siblings by H. Melt
- Day 8: Summer by Chen Chen
- Day 9: Embers by Henri Cole
- Day 10: Male Beauty by Richie Hofmann
- Day 11: [unsent draft] by Rachel Mennies
- Day 12: Forty by Julia Guez
- Day 13: Of Contour, of Cadence by Phillip B. Williams
- Day 14: The Men We Loved by Cyril Wong
- Day 15: Riding the Bus Back to Oxford by Catherine Pond
- Day 16: The Window by Jay Besemer
- Day 17: Want Could Kill Me by Xandria Phillips
- Day 18: What a Waste by Jill McDonough
- Day 19: Eros by Randall Mann
- Day 20: An Act by Michael M. Weinstein
- Day 21: Things I Didn’t Do With this Body and Things I Did by Amanda Gunn
- Day 22: Puzzle Pieces by D. A. Powell
- Day 23: Duplicity by Jameson Fitzpatrick
- Day 24: Is It True All Legends Once Were Rumors by Carl Phillips
- Day 25: High School Sleepovers with Straight Girls by Julian Guy
- Day 26: Abu Nuwas by Kazim Ali
- Day 27: Observation Car by Lauren Clark
- Day 28: Love Song by Eileen Myles
- Day 29: Donuts by Dan Kraines
- Day 30: The Lone Palm by Jenny Johnson
Queer Poem-a-Day is directed by poet and teacher Lisa Hiton and Dylan Zavagno, Adult Services Coordinator at the Deerfield Public Library. Music for this second year of our series is the first movement, Schéhérazade, from Masques, Op. 34, by Karol Szymanowski, performed by pianist Daniel Baer. Queer Poem-a-Day is supported by generous donations from the Friends of the Deerfield Public Library and the Deerfield Fine Arts Commission.